what was, and is to come.

To be confident, yet with humility. This is my desire. Way too many insecurities, not enough faith. To know that I was created in the image of God and to know that I am loved. To be independent, but dependent on God. To be secured in God, and to always acknowledge that no matter what happens… it was just another opportunity to grow and to learn— A blessing in disguise. I no longer want to be the person that I am/was… but rather become the person whom was created by God and for God. I cannot get there alone. Lord, I need you. Jesus, take the wheel.

Psalm 139:13-14 

For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.

Take all of me. 

I haven’t felt like this in a really long time. I don’t know if I should be grateful or if I should be disappointed. All I know is that it hurts in a bitter sweet way and I don’t know how to make it go away or if I even want it to go away. So many sleepless nights. So many questions but no answers. So many uncried tears.

Time to lose weight!!